In a previous post, I talked about a Japanese Goddess aka Kami coming to me in a dream. She helped me to let go of all of the rage that I had accumulated over many years. Well I think I now know who this Kami/Goddess was. Her name is Amaterasu. She is the Kami of the Sun and is the only (at least as far as I know) only female sun Goddess.

Now I know that many people play games and when they hear Amaterasu they think of “Ammy” from Okami. Originally, I did as well since I also play that game. However, I no longer see her in that form. Instead I see her as this.


Pic came from here.

I am currently researching her and trying to continue working with her. I will post more info as it comes.


Learning to feel good about myself


Pic came from here.

I’m not quite sure what to call this little idea that popped into my head this morning, but I’ll try anyway. I guess you could call it banishment, but it’s banishing negative thoughts and feelings that I have about myself. I will do this by writing down every negative feeling/thought I have about myself. I will then tear up and burn this page(s). When to burn/destroy the page(s) of negativity is something that needs to be figured you still. However I will also write down 1-2 good qualities that I have for every bad one that I write. I will post more info on this as it happens. Also, the whole idea behind this is to get rid of the bad and let in the good so that I can gain confidence, because I don’t have any right now.

I am also open to any ideas that any of you have.

I have just started doing this and. I already feel like a weights been lifted from my shoulders.