Pic from: Love of the Goddess

The Goddess Skadi, pronounced SKAHD-ee, was unknown to me when I first came across her statue. When I first saw it, I thought that it was the most beautiful but unusual Christmas ornamen that I ever saw. Yes, I said Christmas ornament. At first I thought the lady might be The goddess Figga or Freya but neither of them have a white owl with or are associated with one. I went through everything I could find either in libraries or on the internet until I came across this pic with the name Skadi. 

Skadi is known as the Goddess of winter, the Goddess of the Hunt, the Snowshoe Goddess, as well as a dark goddess. She is dipicted as light blue skinned with icy colored hair, which me makes her look a female version of Jack Frost. However, I see her with pale skin and dark colored hair. She’s always dressed warmly in furs and has either a bow or spear with at all times. 

Her animal companion is unknown, but she does have one. Some say she travels with a wolf, but considering how wolfs are viewed, aka Fenrir, I doubt it. In the pictures I have seen of her online her animal companion is a polar bear. However, she is known to have loved in the mountains so I doubt the polar bear could make it up that high. To me, her animal companion is a snowy owl. It can help her hunt, and it can easily travel, or fly, up a mountain.

Lately, we have been getting a lot snow and during today’s storm, I managed to talk to Skadi. She refused to talk about why it is snowing in Spring, instead she told me to listen. Apparently, I need to learn something from her. What I heard was that I need to get out more, I need to observe, to listen, I need to get my head out of the “square boxes” aka the computer and the TV. In other words, I need to go back to my roots, to nature. “You are imbalanced,” she told me, “Find the balance and everything will fall into place.” 

I’m not sure where my imbalance is, or how to correct it, but I will try. Wish me luck guys!  


Still Alive

While I am still alive physically, I feel that spiritually I am not doing so well. Set has gone on one of his journeys an hasn’t been back. The other Gods and Goddesses have also wandered off. While I am used to them coming and going in life, I have been not seen or heard from one since I first realized that I was a pagan. This is very scary for me, and I am not sure what to do. Have I angered them in some way? What should I do? 


In a previous post, I talked about a Japanese Goddess aka Kami coming to me in a dream. She helped me to let go of all of the rage that I had accumulated over many years. Well I think I now know who this Kami/Goddess was. Her name is Amaterasu. She is the Kami of the Sun and is the only (at least as far as I know) only female sun Goddess.

Now I know that many people play games and when they hear Amaterasu they think of “Ammy” from Okami. Originally, I did as well since I also play that game. However, I no longer see her in that form. Instead I see her as this.


Pic came from here.

I am currently researching her and trying to continue working with her. I will post more info as it comes.

Learning to feel good about myself


Pic came from here.

I’m not quite sure what to call this little idea that popped into my head this morning, but I’ll try anyway. I guess you could call it banishment, but it’s banishing negative thoughts and feelings that I have about myself. I will do this by writing down every negative feeling/thought I have about myself. I will then tear up and burn this page(s). When to burn/destroy the page(s) of negativity is something that needs to be figured you still. However I will also write down 1-2 good qualities that I have for every bad one that I write. I will post more info on this as it happens. Also, the whole idea behind this is to get rid of the bad and let in the good so that I can gain confidence, because I don’t have any right now.

I am also open to any ideas that any of you have.

I have just started doing this and. I already feel like a weights been lifted from my shoulders.

A Visit from a Kami

Kami come from the Japanese religion Shinto. If you want to know more, check out The Twisted Rope Blog by clicking the only link here.

I had a weird dream Thanksgiving night, yet it left me feeling renewed and refreshed when I woke up. A Japanese Goddess greeted me in a huge hall. She let me scream at her and when I couldn’t she let me throw her around. When I was done, she handed me a blank mask and sad that I had a second chance. I realized later that she was letting me vent. I had been feeling sad and depressed lately. I was keeping everything bottled up, which isn’t healthy. I still don’t knw what she meant by second chance, nor do I know the name of the Goddess who helped me. I’m grateful to her and would love to thank her! So far all I remember about her is her long black hair and that she had something on her forehead.

I haven’t seen her since Thanksgiving night, but I hope she comes back to visit me soon. I would like to work with her. Ever since that night, I have felt relieved, like a big weight has been lifted. The only other thing that I remember about the dream is that I had to throw a rope out to whoever I has supposed to be with. Each end had a loop on it. One was on my wrist and the other was in hers. When I saw her she felt kind and caring, but looked regal.

What offerings should I give her? Well I asked Devo and she said “As for offerings, the standard Shinto offerings are rice, water, sake, salt. You can offer other foods- stick with things that are simple, healthy and not overly smelly :3” I have since offered her water and some cranberry bread. Also, I have made a makeshift shrine, since I can’t afford to purchase a real one ( they run from $250-$650).


My makeshift Shrine. The gold, shiny cloth is covering a badly stained wooden shelf. And the green leaf cloth is cover big the badly stained inside of the shallow box. Since I can’t buy a shrine, this is my attempt at mimicking one. The whole idea behind it, is to make the Kami who helped me to feel more at home. I might be missing something, so if I am, please let me know! And yes, I know that I haven’t been active on here, but I’ve been swamped with both school and my part time job.

Blessed be,
Autumn SilverMoon

Part time job and Set

the god Set

Sorry about the disappearing act. I just recently got a part time job so I’ve been pretty busy with that. About the picture of Set, he’s there because I’ve been seeing him lately. However, he’s been giving me the silent treatment. So all I get from him is him either looking at me or away from me. So once I know/figure out what he wants from me I’ll let you guys know. However this might take awhile since I’ll be classes start on the 28th of this month. So that’s all for now!

Blessed be,
Autumn SilverMoon

The God

Throughout the years, the God has not been forgotten or changed because he had a role that wasn’t ‘suited’ to him. He is the Lord, the consort to the Lady, he is the sun to her moon. While reading about many Gods (and Goddesses) I noticed that as we learned more, we would force the God to take on roles that were held by a Goddess. One of these roles, I believe, was that of the sun (I forget which culture this is from, sorry.). Also, when Christianity came around to convert the ‘pagan heathens’ they were having a rough time of it. So over their many travels all over the world, they found a Babylonian God (heard this part on a National Geographic Special, and yet again I forget the name. I saw it years ago, sorry.) and didn’t like him. I think he had horns, or cloven feet. So when they came to Ireland and other Celtic countries and saw Cernunnos they got an idea. They put Cernunnos and the Babylonian God together, the result, Satan aka Lucifer. Don’t you just love converting people now? Also, if you want to know where Christianity was at a certain time, just look at the holidays. The holidays are all based off of old Pagan ones. Why? It made converting the “Pagan Heathens’ easier. Now enough of the history lesson, which I’ve gathered from TV shows, friends and family over the years. (Parts of what has been mentioned earlier may not be right, since its all from memory. You have been warned.) If you want to learn more about The God and his various forms please read:

The Witches’ God By: Stewart Farrar and Janet Farrar
An excellent book that talks about Gods from all over the world.

Now the God I started out with was Cernunnos. Just like with the first Goddess, Brighid (Brigid, Brigit, or Brid), I started to feel very warm. However, I never really asked Cernunnos for help, because he confused me. I tried to understand him, but no luck. As I sit here typing this I’m desperately trying to understand him, desperately trying to figure what his job. So when I felt the need to look at the book again, see above picture, I was happy to do so. The God I got next was Thoth or Djeheuty (pronounced Tehuti) (Te hoot ee or Te hoo tie or Te Ho Teh). I was thrilled to say the least. Why? Well unlike Brhighid and Cernunnos, Thoth and Ma’at are a couple (they are each others consort). Also, Thoth is the god of wisdom, inventor of writing, patron of scribes and the divine mediator. I love to write stories, and when I hit a writers I take a break for a while before asking for his help. After doing more research, I learned more about him and grew to like him more and more.


Sure his head is that of an Ibis and he has the body of a man and he’s an ancient Egyptian God but I DON’T CARE! He works of me, I understand him. Thoth and Ma’at have always been there for me. Whenever I ask for help they answer me as best they can, even though the only offerings I can give them is my eternal thanks and a small bowl of water. I guess what I’m trying to say is this. You know your God and Goddess better than anyone, and so you know what they will and will not accept as offerings. So do your research, get to know your deities and be yourself.

Thoth or Djeheuty (pronounced Tehuti) (Te hoot ee or Te hoo tie or Te Ho Teh)

That’s all for now. Blessed be to all who come. Only love shall enter and only love shall leave.

Autumn SilverMoon